Step 9

Yet again I have neglected you, imaginary ready, but no more.

What has happened since my last quite depressing post? No, depressing is the wrong word I think. more like "Panickey" or "stressed" or "agitated". This is why i love the english language. It has the power to describe the same feeling in twice the amount of ways swedish can.

Back on track here. My last post ended in me being struck by panic over not getting any work done. A fair amount of water has passed under the bridge since that post, and all is better, I promise you. I got some gears going and started getting some work finished. since the start I've learned tons and will learn tons more. My internship got extended and ive grown in my self-esteem a thousandfold. it seems like only yesterday I was scared of leaving my dark thoughts and self-loathing behind me and take my steps towards  employment.

I'm still not done with my work and there's pressure of course but I feel more relaxed and if it gets borked... well I can't really do more than I am able to, right? If I tried my best, no one can take that from me.

For those unaware of how insanely hot it is here in sweden, I can try and paint a picture of it in your head.

It is so hot that...
   ... stepping out of a car with aircondition is like getting assaulted by a tsunami made of heat.
   ... breating is like trying to extract oxygen through syrup.
   ... anything that takes any amount of effort is performed in the same pace of an ice-age... without the cool breeze.
   ... the concept of siesta is second nature, as is sweating tidal waves and taking several showers a day.

That should give you a glimpse of the weather. A part from that all is pretty up and up. I'll givea shout-out to my previous job coach who is going to Arvika festval to check out the most awsome band in history: George Michael and the Go Go's!

*flips script* no wait... scratch that. let's erase that before we print it, and put in In Flames instead.

Ahem... well, no doubt my coach will stand at the stage still impersonating a scheming goblin with ease, enjoying a few cold ones in the nice warm weather. You go, girl!

I've also tried some job coaching of my own. It's not hard to understand what drives a job coach to help people help themselves. It was a very rewarding feeling to help out in such a way. Who knows? If this web buisness doesn't pan out the way I'd like it to, maybe I'll give coaching a try. Maybe even another country?

Time will tell. My travelling plans are now as follows (in no particular set order): Scotland, Italy, Japan and Greece. (list grows longer as time moves on).

Until we meet again, imaginary reader!